Sushi with Sheman
05 Sep 2010 3 Comments
in Relations Tags: aggressive, facebook, girlfriend, kissing, lesbian, make out, myspace, nervous, pepe le pew, school girl, Sheman, sushi
Sheman was helping a girlfriend move to my town. So being in town she wanted to see me which was fine. We have conversed via texts since the last time we saw one another and I was really getting to know her.
I had an issue with her. She’s bossy. We chatted about similar things that we had in common. We animals and aquariums. Grant it she is very knowledgable on aquariums but I am not stupid about them. Just since the birth of my kids, I stopped this hobby to pay more attention to them. Now that my babies are older I started to slowly bring them back into the home. Since Sheman found out about me starting it back up, she had been constantly telling me what to do in regards to my tanks.
This began to really tick me off. My mother was always telling me how to live my life. Hence the reasoning as to why our relationship is so strained. So I had to set this woman straight to make her stop telling me what to do. Its one thing to ask a question and getting a response helping you. So once I flipped on her she realized to stop or I was going to end it.
I picked her up at a local bar to go to a sushi bar I was dying to try. Dinner went very well and we really do get along famously. During dinner she told me that her friend she was moving here was on a blind date that was not going well. So we were to meet her at a local bar. When we got there Sheman kissed me in the car and it was nice. I have to say that I am very uncertain around her. I am a bit nervous and out of my norm. Her being an aggressive lesbian is an experience that makes me apprehensive in uncharted territory. I ended the make out session so that I could meet her friend.
Her friend was also a lesbian and very pretty one at that. She was talkative and quite interesting. She has a lovely job working with children that have entered the system for being bad kids or victims of their surroundings.
During our chats we came on to talking about Myspace and Facebook, Sheman stated she couldn’t find me on there and I replied that I did find her but did not friend her. She looked at me questioning and I laughed it off saying I was wondering when you were going to ask me about it. I have issues mixing “lovers” with my personal life that my family and acquaintances know me as. One slip and the world knows. Yeah.. no thanks.
It was time to bring the night to an end, her friend had a very early morning and had an hour to drive back to their town. Sheman walks me to my car and puts her arms around me in the hold that I would not be able to break from. The make out session that
Sheman has me in her Clutches!
followed had me giggling like a school girl. I am sailing uncharted waters and not sure if I can handle it. As she devoured me I felt no control and I believe that’s what I find unnerving. I tried pulling away a few times and her grip on me became tighter. I literally felt like the cat caught in Pepe Le Pew’s clutches. I was uncomfortable being in the open in front of this bar making out with her. Not to mention her friend.
I kept saying that she had to go but she wasn’t letting go. Kept trying to get me going but I wasn’t able to. I was not at ease and I giggled a lot. Its part of my nervousness if you knew me. She kept trying to get to my neck and do that hickie thing. I can’t stand hickies and really that’s just high school ghetto crap. I did bite her lip to get her to stop but instead it fueled her further cause she loved it. I was really being mauled.
She wanted to go further but I stopped her saying that I started my period this morning, and I really did. I found that hilarious since the last time we met I was menstruating then too. She stated that periods don’t stop her, I was like OH NO!
Once I broke free from her clutches I felt better and more in control. I guess I am treading uncharted waters. Most of my girl on girl action was with bi-women. I never had a true lesbian and its kinda scary! LOL
The next morning she started in with the questions of am I going to add her on Facebook. I told her I would think about it. I threw in that I really don’t want my personal life being exposed to my family on there. Then she asks me to be her girlfriend. UGH!!! Again I said I would think about it. I don’t want to. I don’t want to be someone’s girlfriend. I have no idea what all that entails.
Sexually she has boasted about being really good in the sack. I told her I didn’t want to hear it. I could have thrown at her if she was that good, why are you single?! I won’t though. I just don’t need her to put herself on this peddle-still that I will knock her down from later on.
So, second date and I haven’t run screaming from her. She is definitely the most aggressive person pursuing me. I am unsure of her but not ending it either.
Sweet Time
13 Aug 2010 1 Comment
in Relations Tags: date, laughing, lesbian, sixth sense
I had a date with Sheman last night. It was a difficult road for me to actually go on this date with her. Emotionally battling myself as I dealt with her Singleness and her need to consume my every waking moment.
While she understood I have a family life, it did not deter her from trying to get past my walls I built up. Hard part was that I liked the girl. We have tons in common and it’s quite easy to chat it up with her.
She also has a overbearingness that is soo man like! If she wants something she would not take hints and would bring me to the brink of ready to lose my shit with her. I pondered why I was letting her slide on things that would normally bug the hell outta me from guys. Well, she’s not a guy! Our connection is on the same level and I feel comfortable talking with her.
She does have a risk-ay side that throws caution to the wind and lives for the moment. I’m not used to being around someone like that. For now its intriguing if not frustrating. Meaning she rented a car to meet me. I was very upset about her doing this. It’s not a norm for someone to go so far to get something they want. After she explained why she rented the car, meeting me being a small part of it I agreed to meet with her.
I met her at a local restaurant and we hit it off famously. We had a pricey dinner and drinks, while laughing and chatting away. So much so that I forgot to text hubby that all was ok and he called to check up on me. Talking with my love I told him that I would be home probably in a few hours and hung up.
Sheman and I went for a walk while talking and laughing further. Time really just got away from us and it was very close to midnight now when I realised the time. I mentioned I really should get going when I received a text from hubby stating I needed to come home now. Sixth sense we have, him and I.
I had to end the night with Sheman, we walked back to the cars and told her I had a great time with her. I leaned in to kiss her goodbye and pulled away and said NOPE! She looked all shocked and I started laughing. I gave her a hug and kissed her. She wanted more but I said I really needed to go.
I like her. I see some fun times ahead with her. YAY!!
An Update
14 Jul 2010 Leave a Comment
in Open marriage Tags: bisexual, chatting, depression, hubby, lesbian, love, lover, OKcupid, Open marriage, poly group, sexual banter, women
As my depression disappears, so is my pain that I had been experiencing. I won’t say it’s totally gone but I have definitely stopped all forms of pain meds to curb it. I attribute all this to eliminating the bombardment of strange men wanting to get into my pants and surrounding myself with my immediate family members.
I kept open just one profile via OKcupid and shut down all the others. I like this one above all else because I can easily block unwanted solicitations and chat with them immediately without means of them pushing for cell numbers. I did alter my profile on this one. I added my hot Dom pics and boy did I attract attention. I attracted women. And this I liked. I like it a lot.
I received a message from a local hot bi girl who was looking to network with other poly type people. We chatted before but had lost contact due to busy lives and personal chaos. She is totally adorable but allusive. I love her already! It appears we will have our first local poly group meeting and she has made sure I attend. I plan on taking hubby so he can intermingle as well.
Speaking of my love, he has been amazing thru all this. Patient, sweet, and understanding. I only berated him when I was my lowest. Needing him to be the one to make the decisions while I was a blubbering mess. He being such a sweety doesn’t want to be a negative guy telling me no. I think I need to be told no more often. But I love the guy for letting me be such a free spirit. So, I am bashing him for not being a jerk of a husband. LOL
Another mention is my 8 yr long lover that I dumped. He has been always in the picture but on the outskirts and me being mean to him. Its interesting, us women in OM find that men who have had a bone tossed to them in any manner or form like to take it and run with it. They even feel that they still are allowed access to said bone when they ask for it. This is my lover, won’t take no for an answer and enjoys hearing about my adventures.
Well he had a heart attack shortly after I last saw him. He had lost some weight and I found myself thinking.. “hey baby…” then mentally blocked the rest of that thought. Days later I find out about him and then I found myself thinking about him, a lot. WTF?! I talked to friends about him and I realized I missed the bastard. I really do enjoy the sexual banter we have back and forth. Its exciting if not very arousing.
Since his untimely vacation, I ran into him several times. He hasn’t made the life changing choices he should have but, whatever. His choice. I have started up the banter back with him and truly enjoyed it. I even offered him a tumble but he was unable to break a company rule to sneak in my house to do it. Well.. if that’s not a challenge to see how quickly I can get him to break that, then I don’t know what is. LOL
I would also like to mention that I lunched with my straight gone lesbian gone bisexual girlfriend and it was so much fun being with her. She was truly therapeutic and I loved seeing her so deliriously happy in her life. It made me feel like I helped accomplished something for her and she glowed with happiness. This helped me regain myself even further.
It’s just interesting how life is changing for me and how I helped others. My optimistic outlook is back and my sense of humor as well. I had missed me for quite a while. And I am glad I am back.
I did meet a very tasty female thru OKcupid, a true lesbian. She has my attention and I am excited to learn a thing or two from a pro. LOL I told her that I was a virgin compared to her and instead of her shying away, it made her very excited about breaking me in.
The Lesbian
22 Jun 2010 1 Comment
in Sexuality Tags: bisexual, boobs, climax, clit, karaoke, kissing, lesbian, musician, pussy, singing
I met my lesbian in the summer time of last year, before I started this blog. I found her on a dating site and liked her immediately. Her being a scatter brain took for ever to write back and then we met at a local walking trail that was near my home.
Her background is that she was getting a divorce from a very good-looking man because she’s a lesbian. They have two children together that are very young and so it worked well for us to meet on this trail so that we can walk the kids in their strollers while we chatted.
Our first initial meeting was that she was quite the talker and was all over the map on subjects. I found her hilarious and very lost within herself. She looked to me as a friend and a possible lover.
I told her that we have to get to know each other first before something like that was to happen. Really she was a nut that I felt in need of cracking. I took her under my wing and made it my goal to find her love.
She was quite the basket case, calling me crying and in need of tons of consoling. I tried steering her in positive directions but she would find fault with every step of the way. Then one day I found her calling. Karaoke! I loved it as well but not like her. It became her religion. And she was damn good at it too.
Every week I would get dragged to the bar as she belted out one song after another. Men would flock to her and she would scorn them. Fellow lesbians would make advances at her and she would freak and back off. I had to help her out. So I propositioned her. “Do I need to come over and do ya to get you over your fear of fucking a woman?” She hemmed and hawed over the for a while. But didn’t take me up on it.
Then one week I had this incredible itch that no dick could touch. I wanted pussy. And here was my friend mopping and crying in her beer. So I again propositioned her. This time I was quite blunt in saying ” I’m coming over tonight so you can have your way with me”. She did not turn me down.
Hanging out at her place she was nervous and jittery. She liked to smoke and smoke pot. I am closet smoker and I do not mind pot either. We drank beer and snuggled while watching a slapstick comedy she was dying for me to see. She ended up lying on my boobs which are .. well chesty. And she began to grope them, all the while telling me she is a boob girl.
I lost my clothes fairly quickly and the movie was forgotten as we began to kiss and explore each other. What a difference it is to touch a female body instead of hard body of a man. It was exciting and I was thrilled to be having the great one on one experience. This was a first for both of us.
She was gentle but with some forcefulness here and there that made it just right for a female’s touch. Mauling my breasts I was in heaven wanting more. She worked her way down to my aching pussy as I found myself climaxing within minutes of her lips and tongue touching me. As the shudders ran thru me, I giggled saying this is what I needed!
I was then eager to play with her. She felt really uncomfortable but I assured her that she was fine and to enjoy it. Her breast were small and some what deflated compared to my full boobs. She had large nipples which is great for breast-feeding. I commented on that and she did say that she did breast feed her babies.
When I got to her puss, she told me I did not have to do this. I said shut up and enjoy it! She had a scent of warm cookies and her taste was sweet. I was enjoying hearing her moans and Thank Yous as I brought her to her climax.
That was our first time together solo. She then wanted to hook up daily and I could not. I tried telling her that she had her experience and need not be afraid of being with another woman. After some more gentle pushing on my end, she met up with a full fledge lesbian that rocked her world. Turns out lesbians like to find “fresh meat” and break them in then leave them. Odd whoring behavior but whatever.
She was back on the rebound and hounding me. I invited her over to play and this included toys and lots of giggling. I got to play with my toy on her clit that made her jump outta her skin when I touched it. This was our last time together.
Karaoke was her main outlet and she lived for those nights. Weather was becoming colder and I battled one cold after another that kept me from hanging with her at the bar. She talked of other lesbians but nothing panned out for her.
Then she started hanging out with fellow musicians that idolized her and one fella seriously had a thing for her. She told me that she wanted to just toy with him because she was a lesbian but within two weeks she was head-over-heels in love with the man. Turns out her husband was not the man for her. He was drop dead gorgeous ( I know, met him and he was wearing a loin cloth -thats it!! Super fuckin hot!) but had a big dick and she hated his cock. So she fantasized about women and convinced herself she was a lesbian.
Today she is happily in love with this musician that can make her cum by a single touch. We are still friends and chat frequently. I love hearing her gush about her man. Years of unhappiness has finally brought her full circle of Karaoke and her man.
She tells me I am the one she has to thank for this. I was just there to help a lost soul find herself. Our last conversation was in regards to her sexuality, since I had to know! “Do you still consider yourself a lesbian” . Her answer is no but she is attracted to women so she is definitely bisexual.
So comes the full circle of a Straight girl gone lesbian that has become a bisexual.
