String of Orgasms
23 Jun 2011 Leave a Comment
in Open marriage Tags: hubby, Masturbation, MFM, orgasm, Sassyslut, Sheman, string of orgasms
Sex for me lately has been more about quality instead of quantity. I stopped masturbating for quite some time now due to the orgasms from a battery operated toy paling in comparison to the physical touch of another person. I have no problems patiently waiting for that moment to arise.
My hard working hubby can be exhausted from a day’s work and with the heat it is increasingly difficult to dredge up the energy to go there. We joke about sweating just thinking about it. So we wait.
Early this morning the time was right. Hubby worked all my lovely parts with his hands and mouth bringing me to extreme excitement that I was literally sweating for more. As he entered me it was apparent I was way too wet for the friction to do its magic. But after a few thrusts it didn’t matter as I being delivered to a nice orgasm. Things progressed in a nice manner that I was truly enjoying it.
And then hubby kicks in the magic he does that sends me over the edge and a hard orgasm hits that has me crowing the morning to all. He does this cute little giggle at me and kicks it into overdrive that launches me to into a string of orgasms that literally blurs my vision to black and my head clouds like I was high. There seems to be a level there that I teeter on but stop and come back down from. It’s a curious place that I believe I would lose myself in total abandonment. I think I would like to venture their just to see if I like it.
This is a total control thing that I am finding I want to try to give up just to see what this sensation is. Of course, I would only do this with Hubby.
In Other news:
Sheman is still in the picture but it has been on the quiet side. She has given me my space on healing. Her job keeps her busy enough to not hound me to get together as much as she did. And come next month will make a year of her being in my life. That’s a major wow factor right there, huh?!
In Wilder news:
One of my siblings found a profile of mine I had on a pervy site that I had deleted months ago. This website doesn’t recycle or refresh their server I guess, which makes for interesting situations for those out there cheating. So yeah, I was told about it via second person and to be honest, I could care less if the family finds out about our Open Marriage.
In Hotter news:
The date has been set for the MFM party!! August 20th, baby! It has been decided that it will be just myself and SassySlut with a group of men. We will be over booking the men, only because odds are they won’t show. But wouldn’t that be wild if they all showed! HAH
Guilty Sex
23 May 2011 Leave a Comment
in Relations Tags: clit, considerate, guilty sex, hubby, mulitiple orgasms, Nipple, orgasm, pain
It has been sometime that Hubby had sex but that is due to me not being up to par. I find no pleasure in pain so the past month or so I have not been in the mood. But lately I have found that my medication puts me back in “normal” mode for a good eight hours before I have to take the pain killers again. I dropped hints to Hubby that I was game to mess around but he would not take me seriously.
I finally asked him why and he stated that he did not want to have Guilty Sex. Meaning he did not want a few moments (well longer than that) of pleasure and then see me be in pain afterwards. This puts him in a guilt ridden mode that he would refrain from touching me again.
What a sweet man I have right? I am quite lucky to have a considerate man. Thoughts fly thru my head as to “gee I am so very lucky” to “grrr be a little more aggressive, man!” but ultimately I know he is worried about my health even if I am not.
He did take me by surprise a few days ago. I woke up with his lips attached to my nipple and his fingers on my clit. It was an instant arousal that had me squirming and wanting more. When he entered me it was like coming home. Being celibate for so long had brought on one of the hardest orgasms that I ever experienced that went on forever. Or so it seemed like it did. I believe there were several big orgasms that melted into each other that had me screaming in delight.
Since then I have to say the beast has awaken and wants more. But life likes to wreck that so we wait till the next moment to arise.
whore-some urges
21 Jan 2011 Leave a Comment
in Open marriage Tags: cough drop, hardcore fucking, hubby, orgasm, porn, sex, stamina, vibrator
The old whore-some urges are back. As I have my flare ups I tend to flirt and paw at hubby for some quality naked time. LIfe is difficult at times and I find that our schedules are difficult as of late. So.. I have found myself up late at night and extremely horny.
I popped a cough drop in my mouth and beelined it to the bedroom, stripping along the way. Entering the bedroom its dark and I wait a few moments to adjust to the darkness, I see hubby lying on his back breathing deeply in sleep. I’m done stripping and slide into bed. He stirs slightly as I pull the blankets down to his waist and start kissing his chest and nipping his nipples. Trailing my way down his yummy trail to my goal. All the while he is slowly waking and realizing what I am doing. He finds his soft cock in my mouth and doesn’t stop me.
Within a few moments I have him hard and sucking his breath as I lightly blow on his cock giving him the hot/cold sensation he so loves. See I grabbed this tasty treat to prolong his ejaculation because Momma wanted a good long fuck. I continued to suck his cock and begun to deep throat him until the cough drop disappeared. Yum!
I assumed my favorite position of being on top as his thick cock eased into me I let out a little shiver of anticipation. From here it was a blur of orgasmic tremors that shook me from one peak to another until I begged to be fucked.
The next moments I remember were in doggy position as he began to piston in and out of me so fast and hard I was squealing in delight. It was amazing the stamina my honey has as he fucks me so hard and fast. I can’t get enough of it. When we both came it was like we were melded so closely that I did not want it to end.
This happened several days ago, the next evening I went in for seconds. Last evening I gave the poor man a break and watched some porn and played with my toy. It was not the same but did it job. Hubby wanted his fun early morning but I denied him. I see another late night visit in his very near future happening.
Orgasmic Thoughts
06 Nov 2010 Leave a Comment
in Open marriage, Relations Tags: foreplay, orgasm, orgasm achieving thoughts, Sex toy, Sexual arousal, Sexual intercourse, sexual thoughts, Sexuality, Thought
I sent hubby out on night out with a few girls. He is having some well over due ”me” time which I am very ok with. Its funny, I thought about this earlier and rehashed that he is in fact going out with a coworker and an old fling. Two years ago I would be a fretting mess over this event taking place, yet today I am barely thinking about it.
Now grant it, two years ago I was a pregnant irrational basket case so I am thrilled to find myself totally ok with the conducts of my husband. In fact I tend to instigate them and push him out the door. I want him out there sowing his oats and being a total whore. Its intoxicating when he does this.
Which brings me to why I need to have my strange on. I truly love having sex with my hubby. We tend to do the same old positions that is apparently fine. Comfy orgasms are better than none, right?
Well, lately.. I seem to have had a switch in whats “doin it” for me. The high that I used to achieve from the orgasms hubby pull outta me kind of went away. I still enjoy the sex but there is something missing. I have been hornier than hell but it’s not the same.
Take this morning; hubby initiates the foreplay while I am in deep sleep. In my dream state it turns erotic and I become fully aroused. Reality and dream worlds are colliding and its hard to decipher what was what, there was just an intense need to cum. Yet I couldn’t get there.
In my mind, arousal is always things that turn you on. It can be so vanilla or so out there bizarre but it doesn’t matter because it fuels the arousal to the point of orgasming. I have had multiple different scenarios fly thru my head. My recent flings tend to fuel the arousal to the point of I can use them multiple times. There are certain kinds of porn that can spur me on. Verbage is also another means I use to get me there.
Yet lately all my goto’s have dissipated and I am stuck with nothing. I scramble thru my brain and I find it kills the high for me so when I do cum its, kinda lame. Yeah I got mine but it’s not my hard-core ones. I find that disturbing. Is it wrong for me to achieve my orgasms this way? I think not. We all have our happy spots that get us off. I do use these moments with my husband though. Could that be wrong? Hmm, maybe. But I can’t help it. He does get me hot and at times its him I fantasies about but not always.
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I don’t expect him to be thinking about me while we are fucking. I would be shocked actually and most likely call him a liar for it. The man has a mind that runs in multiple directions at once. So something totally odd would be his “big O”.
My thought this morning that helped me cum was thinking about Sheman. Soon as my mind wrapped around her name I was orgasmic. So… whats that mean?!
I am starting to feel the need to see someone.. but I refuse to go thru the internet. The lies and bullshit stops now and I will physically hunt for my next lover. Will I see Sheman, yeah I think so. She is waiting to move into her new home. So once she is settled, I will pay her a visit. And I have also been flirting up a storm at my job. Since I am exposed to the public and meet new faces every day. Odds are I will meet one that will be forward enough to make the move. And I have.. he has given me his card to contact him. But I have digressed in initiating anything. In all due time, I suppose.
So, even though I have been such a boring whiner lately. I feel this phase is passing and I am heading in a new direction.
A year of Changes
22 Sep 2010 2 Comments
in Relations Tags: Advice, dating, Humor, Intimate relationship, orgasm, Recreation, Relationships, sex, Sexology, Sexual intercourse, Sexuality
I realized that its been a full year of my twin and I becoming friends. During this time frame we became quite chatting and learned all about each other. We both are in an Open Marriage with husbands that just don’t think like the majority.
Over time it came more apparent that her situation was very different from mine. She has an intimacy deficiency in her relationship while mine does not lack in that department. Her man has lots of issues where my man doesn’t. She realised she is very subservient as a lover and I am more dominating.
In the sexual realm, we both started out with a an entourage of men chasing us. She loves to travel to meet them and I don’t. My sexual exploits were one nightmarish experience after another. Where her’s flourished to the point that she found one man who fulfills her needs and she entered the world of BDSM. My sexual needs seem to have petered off to just wanting to be with my husband.
I used to love playing with my vibrator and that even disinterest me. Orgasm with my husband are like a high. The vibrator brings on more superficial orgasms. It’s so interesting how I came to this point. Energizer and Duracell are pretty pissed at me for their lost in sales. But I can’t help it!
This past weekend there was a poly gathering and I had all intentions of going but the sitter did a no-show. The gathering had the option to bring the kids but I didn’t feel comfy with that and opted to just sending hubby instead. It’s amazing how the group is growing but I didn’t feel like going. I would just love to sit back and watch my husband have his fun.
It’s almost like this ran its course with me. Or these lame ass dating sites have jaded me to the point that I am content with what I have.
Since the last posing, Sheman has finally understood that her psycho behavior with me is unacceptable. She even went as far as to purchase scented candles that smell like me. I kept thinking about the last time we were together and one thing really had me on edge. When she had me in her death grip she had this look in her eyes that really scared me. After talking with hubby and several friends about her. I came to realise she’s one of those people who live life in the fast lane. Loves too quickly and makes crazy decisions. I think her being a friend is all I can handle. She’s killed everything else with me.
I won’t say I am out of the sex lane. Since there are a few fun people I want to play with. I just am not interested in meeting anyone new. The games and bullshit is all old and I need to concentrate on what I want to provide for my family more. I still flirt with my old lover, Big Daddy and chat with some poly folks. So I don’t think I will be lacking in entertainment.
So who knows. I live life a day at a time with this.
What the Heck?!
14 Sep 2010 1 Comment
in Relations Tags: Fuck, High School, morning sex, orgasm, sex, Sexuality, stalking
Ok, ya know how I bitched and complained about Morning Sex a few postings back. Remember that? I do. Since posting that I knew.. just KNEW! I would want to have morning sex. It’s a gimme with me. Yeah, I’m a tard.
So sexually, things have been slow due to the kids not being in school and life becoming severely stressful. About two days ago at the crack of dawn, Hubby makes his move and I did not stop him. In fact, I thoroughly enjoyed it! So much so that I was aching for more and I was thrilled to do it again this morning.
Orgasmically I find that I have several kinds now. When I am on top and have this orgasm that is very close to a high from smoking pot. And it can be a high that rides into one another that can give me the shakes. Its pretty awesome.
When he is on top and in control its very hard-core. I want to video him fucking me but he is not to keen on it. I think I would love it though.
I also believe that I am changing sexually, things are just so much more intuned with him that I had ever been. I like it!
In other news, Sheman has aggressively pushed my overwhelmed button to have me flip my shit on her. By bombarding me with questions of when I wanted to hook up and needing me to pick a date really put me in freak out mode. Her reasoning was because she was renting a car to see me but I repeatedly explained to her that my school work comes first. All of this came to a head when I went off on her about how this was just supposed to be ”fun”. Except it was more chaotic and demanding. I told her that her asking me to be her girlfriend had me freaking out and that I was more leaning towards just being friends. She then back pedaled to make it all right again,except it wasn’t. She would still needle me and wanting to eat up so much of my time. I am really seeing that she is not poly material. Which I will not even entertain that notion.
Since my blow up with her she has questioned our relationship hoping to put things back to her normal. Except I don’t want to. I need a break from her before I tell her it’s totally over. It’s her method of trying to get what she wants from me that really grates on my nerves. I find myself not wanting to share anything about me with her. And this is due to her over the top questioning and mothering that is not wanted.
So her stalking me via email, IMing, texting and thru a frigging video game has taken its toll. Her last text whined about how I don’t text w her like I normally do. HELLO! Take a hint!! And then she has to send me an email that scream of High School bullshit.
Thank god for my Twin helping me with telling my aggressive stalking psycho to take a chill and back the fuck off!! Oh.. in a nice way. And surprisingly she bowed out nicely and is giving me a break. So that was .. about 2 hours ago. I’m sure by this time frame tomorrow she will be texting me to see how I am doing. Bets anyone?
National Orgasm Day
31 Jul 2010 Leave a Comment
in Relations Tags: national orgasm day, orgasm, sex
Today is National Orgasm Day! Or at least that’s what a poster said in a group I am in. Get this. Apparently if you go vegetarian you will have the best orgasms ever! Well that is what Pamela Anderson is saying on Pammie’s Orgasmic Tips.
But, I like meat. A lot. So there is also Peta pushing their video that is hot but I stopped it after they started showing the brutality of animals for mass consumption.
Well Hubby and I celebrated this day with much gusto and lots of OO’s and OMG’s. Even if it’s not Officially the day, we had no problem doing our part.
I do have to say my last posting caused a stir with him and I. He did feel like shit for not getting me off but was miffed because I made it sound as if our sleep schedules was all his fault. That was not my intention, I do believe I mentioned that I was always a night owl and he himself has been conditioned to always rise early. It’s difficult to have a set schedule of sex, but really.. a set schedule sucks ass and I rather have it random and spur of the moment.
Who knows what damage has been done, but it does feel like we hit a pivoting point of where I want to be sexually free of fake orgasms. I understand that we both have bad sexual encounters with or with out each other and that we may or may not have an orgasm. Its life and I don’t expect one every single time. I just won’t fake it any longer.
When we are in synch, my gawd, I am in orgasmic heaven. I’m sure there are times when he is not into it as there are times when I am not. It happens. But when we are, that’s the best times ever! I end up wanting more and more.
I love my man and what he can do to me. It is never easy talking about sensitive issues. Even when we have come this far in our relationship, finding new topics that are touchy is hard to discuss. But we did not talk irrationally and kept it quite civil. For that I feel that we can keep our lines of communication open and go forth with more discussions when needed.
Webcaming
21 Jun 2010 Leave a Comment
in Relations Tags: boobs, cock, FMF, huge cock, masturbate, MFM, micro dick, orgasm, webcam
Last night I was chatting with a fellow blogger Bitch on Crack on IM when I was interrupted by BJ wanting some attention. I chatted a bit with both of them when I decided to really mess with BJ. I asked him to activate his web cam and masturbate for me.
He was very game to play so he turned his on and asked if I had one. I don’t but have in the past and well I could get easily in trouble if I have one readily available. So my part in all this was to watch and tell him what to do. I was game for that.
Having such a rotten time with Black Lion, I wanted a man to jump thru my hoops for a change. I instructed him to position the cam on his cock and he did. He unzips and pulls out his cock. It looked a bit small hiding behind the clothes, so I told him to drop trow so that he was totally free.
He was totally erect and types back to me that he likes me telling him what to do. I have him start rubbing himself while I inform Bitch on Crack what I was doing. We had a nice chuckle and I decide to tell BJ that I told a friend what he was doing for me. He immediately said that she could watch as well if she wanted. She was game and IM’ed him. We both watched him stroke his cock and play with his balls all the while having our own little private conversation.
We both thought the head of his cock was small and pointy. Which lead us to recounting past men we were with and their cocks. I have had my share of different types of cocks. One fella was so big that he could not get it in me, I dumped him immediately. Then there was another drop dead gorgeous man with a micro dick. He asked for a condom and I said for what!? Sex with him didn’t happen, LOL.
BJ was happily stroking away with some small words of encouragements from me. I believe Bitch on Crack was just watching and conversing with me. He did interject how hot she was and wanted both of us positioned in front of him while he was doing this. Of course it led to FMF talk and I told him he was dreaming. See I don’t share my bitches with any man other than Hubby and I made sure he knew it. I did ask if he would be game for a MFM situation and he was. So that there is a nice perk in his favor.
Somehow Bitch on Crack and I got onto the subject of women’s breasts. I had told her that they are all different in feel. Some are super soft and have no filling to them. While others are full with lovely nipples and others are big, soft and tiny nipples. I had her now curious about boobs and wanting to examine them. LOL
All the while this conversation is going on, BJ is still stroking away. We mentioned that he was still going strong, even with an audience. Nice to know he has stamina but we all know that stamina isn’t all that if he can’t keep a girl’s attention. There’s a lot more than sticking a dick in a girl and its be nice if more men would pay attention to that!
So here is BJ still going at it. I decided to start talking all nasty to get him to go already. LOL A few lines of deep throating his cock and he was ready to blow. We watched him dump his load on his shirt and it was nice to know that there wasn’t a lot there either! Not a big fan of bucket loads of cum and it looked like he didn’t have that much precum either. Another plus in his favor.
It was well past 2 am and the vicodine I took had kicked in making me a bit sleepy. I said my good nights to everyone and off to bed I went. I snuggled up to Hubby and he started massaging me. I cupped his balls as his cock sprang to life. Its been sometime since we last been together and I immediately went down on him and rubbed my tits all over his cock.
When he entered me I felt some slight soreness of last encounter but the sensations were all there and feeling good. I enjoyed the tit play and his thrusts but an orgasm was not on the horizon. Hubby was so into it he came hard and did not realize I had not achieved mine. I believe the vicodine is an inhibitor for me like alcohol can be. It’s an enjoyable time but no fireworks for me.
Afterwards, we snuggled and I felt frustrated. I woke up feeling frustrated and unsure if Hubby was even aware that I didn’t get mine. I questioned him as to whether or not he noticed anything different last night and he didn’t. I didn’t tell him I did not get mine. But hey.. at least it was enjoyable.
** On a side note**
I am seeing a pattern of downer postings lately. I do apologize for that but I am posting what is truly happening in my life. I don’t claim or make up shit. Everything I write about is true and actual events that took place. I will have to re-count on some past experiences to perk things back up.
Glorious Orgasm!
08 Jun 2010 1 Comment
in Sexuality Tags: doggy style, fucking, husband, kissing, mulitiple orgasms, nipples, orgasm
I was in the mood today, its been about two weeks actually, that I was REALLY in the mood. So I texted hubby. Time is of the essence here, since the children are all preoccupied with naps or activities outside the house.
Hubby rolls in and I am naked in bed waiting. Soon as he is in bed with me I attack him. I love kissing him. He is really good at it and makes me all warm and gooey inside. After I helped my favorite appendage spring to life, I immediately hopped on it. Riding him while he ran his hands all over me and working over nipples, mmmm I was loving it.
Then I felt myself building and I was so close to cumming and then.. nothing. Rats! Ok, fine. I kept going and the feeling came back and this time, he got me right to the edge and I was shaking and then.. *Angels singing* I came. And I came hard. Hubby continues to work over my nipples as my orgasm rolled into another one and then into another one. I was in orgasmic bliss. I then kissed him as the last one ripple ran thru me. Shaking me to the core, I broke the kiss and said, ” So, umm .. I came!” and we broke out laughing.
Hubby then brought it home by taken me from behind. YEAH!
